Alot of things happened recently. Dont wish to mention much as i saw a phrase from Marcus's Friendster. - Silence says more than a thousand words.- True enough...

My relationship with Dear was quite bad. Not becos of the rumours things. I know that Dear's feelings towards me has faded. But i know he is trying his best to save the relationship. But love cannot be forced. I can understand. When i knew about the message that was sent to all my friends, I find it funny. She wrote that Dear loves me a lot and cherish me. Oh pls, Come on. Get the facts b4 u write. No wonder Dear didnt even bother abt her. She doesnt know that our relationship turned bad le.. And she said my boss paid for transport , food and even holiday expenses... Craps. What a joke man. LOLz. Her main purpose was to break me & Dear up. Hmm... But can i say that she actually made it? Dear wasnt affected by the msg at first but the second one came out. And he say the msg did affect him. SAD. The one who love me dont believe me.

I knew he has no feelings towards me already. So i think the best choice was to end the relationship. He agreed too. I was upset and cried. I cant even see him again anymore.I broke up not because i dont love him , in fact i do love him alot. Even though we have been together for almost 4 months , he brought me alot of good memories. I do wish that we can still continue to be friends. He is going to Brunei soon. Wish he can really take care of himself. Brunei weather very terrible. And he cant tahan hot one. Worry for him. But he wont know.

And something more serious. I might be pregnant. Haiz... Went for the first test. Negative. Second test today- like got 2 lines. Shit lah... This time. Have to go test again... But i dun intend to let him know if i am really pregnant. Dont wanna stress him. He got too much stress in his camp le.. I think i would make my own decision on what to do if it really happens. Sian... So much things happened. AND I REALLY MISS HIM ALOT NOW.

He was someone whom i didnt pin much hopes on, cos i no longer trust guys but he prove me wrong. Yet now i think i m wrong.