Monday, October 8, 2007 10/08/2007 02:24:00 AM
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just changed my blogskin. so pink lah...
today something between me and alen. was supposed to went his place last night but when i reached there. he didnt pick up my call and yes i know he has fallen asleep. i think i made alot of calls. didnt he hear the phone ring. in the end, i cried below his block. my tears just rolled down my cheeks. i dont know why too. i feel like knocking his door but his family sleeping. and its like three plus in the morning. i just sat below his block till four plus.in the end , i just wrote him a note and went home.
this moring i just sms him and ask if he is awake. and he replys me WHAT I WANT NOW. i feel so wad lo. it sounds like its my fault. ya my fault. then he stated saying being strangers is better then friends. wtf. i simply dun understand him. i just cant take it la. my heart bleeds when i heard this. although we have been together for like only 4 months but i really fall deep into it le. i ask him if he did have feelings for me when he is back from brunei. And he say got but now he dun want to have any feelings for me le. i just wish everything can turn back its time. he say i dun understand becos i am not a christian. but .... haiz.. don wanna say so much too. just hope that we cans till remain as friends ba. argh........ i so down recently... kill me ba.. or take my memories away.
today something between me and alen. was supposed to went his place last night but when i reached there. he didnt pick up my call and yes i know he has fallen asleep. i think i made alot of calls. didnt he hear the phone ring. in the end, i cried below his block. my tears just rolled down my cheeks. i dont know why too. i feel like knocking his door but his family sleeping. and its like three plus in the morning. i just sat below his block till four plus.in the end , i just wrote him a note and went home.
this moring i just sms him and ask if he is awake. and he replys me WHAT I WANT NOW. i feel so wad lo. it sounds like its my fault. ya my fault. then he stated saying being strangers is better then friends. wtf. i simply dun understand him. i just cant take it la. my heart bleeds when i heard this. although we have been together for like only 4 months but i really fall deep into it le. i ask him if he did have feelings for me when he is back from brunei. And he say got but now he dun want to have any feelings for me le. i just wish everything can turn back its time. he say i dun understand becos i am not a christian. but .... haiz.. don wanna say so much too. just hope that we cans till remain as friends ba. argh........ i so down recently... kill me ba.. or take my memories away.